Kingdom of God – living by the power of God

Scripture: 1 Corinthians 4:20 “For the kingdom of God is not a matter of talk but of power.”

This is my conversation with God today during my devotional.

Me: God I want to be in your kingdom, I want to be living in the kingdom of God and living by God’s power.  But as I pray Lord, why do I still feel so powerless? You know Lord, I am not a confrontational person, and when people confront me, did you see their eyes, their voices, their facial expressions? It’s scary Lord, and I feel powerless. I want to live in your kingdom, and I am not the person who talks a lot and with great verbosity during arguments, but why do I feel so powerless, not knowing what to say?

I cried because I just feel and see myself as powerless in each of these confrontational situations. It is the opposite of today’s scripture Lord.

God: The truth will set you free. You the freedom, and my power is in the truth, and the truth will set you free. Free from feeling shame, guilt, embarrassment, and powerlessness. You must know who you are, and who you belong to, you must know the truth about yourself before you go out and do anything, or else the world will make you feel powerless. That is what the enemy always tries to do, to make us feel powerless, so we conform to what they want. Pursuit of power, money, prestige life, and status, so we can feel more, and these things will never satisfy.

Me: How do I do that God? How to live in your truth and power every day.

God: Walk with me every day, listen to my word and my truth every day.

Me: God, I want you every day, why is it that I have never experienced the way you talked to me as you did today? I want to be in your presence and talk to you every day and hear your voice every day.

I feel powerless without God and know I need God’s word and truth every day.

God: Silly girl, I am here always, I have always been here waiting for you to talk to me. Just come, I want to talk to you. I long to talk to you and hear your voice. You are my child that I dearly love, I don’t want you to go out without my protection. I am here, and I always will be here, right by your side.

Me sobbing like there’s no tomorrow. Crying out to God that I need him every day.

Me: God, can I ask you a silly question. Can I just wait for you to tell me what to do every day before I do anything, I just don’t want to do anything without your direction and your guidance. See Lord, I like to plan things ahead, and I like to keep myself busy; but, I kind of don’t want to do that anymore. Once I experience you like today, I just want to depend on you. So, Lord, what do you want me to do today?

God: You can post about your experience with me, and you can talk about how the Kingdom of God is to live by God’s power, not on our own power or sheer will. The Kingdom of God is about my power, it’s about God, and how God’s people depend on me. It is quite straightforward – the Kingdom of God is living by God’s power.

Me: okay Lord, is there anything else I should be doing? What else is on the agenda today? What else?

God: I don’t need you to do a lot. My will for you is to share my word and share my love with people around me. You can write out your experience of having a conversation with me and do whatever you like today. Talk to your friend, remember you are supposed to call your friend today. Enjoy your time with your husband.

Me feeling so thankful, so much peace and joy in me, knowing God is with me.